Negative

This blog is filled with sadness and negative feelings.
I dont like it.
Im waiting for you to write something cute, but...no...

Did you really read all my posts that I posted that hour of waiting for you last night?

.ggg

ok dont right on here..right in the blog...its ok...im here as ive always been..was just out with leaon comin back from his dads house. we went to kurts for like 1 hr..i wanted to back sooner...its ok..im here for you. I always care...im honest

Jason

Seriously. you have to call me and explain what's going on...
you have to call me...

I feel so empty right now.
So blank....
I dont know what to say anymore.
I feel so stupid for acting this way.

You have to call me, just call...my cell-phone or whatever...whenever, even if it is when Im at work.

I'm taking one step back for now. Just to make myself calm down.

God, Im crying so much!

You dont care about me!?

Talked to your mom...

She answered, she said you were out, at least that is what she thought.

Can't believe it...
You're out...doing what?
Omg.
I'm worried.
Jason! wtf!

I woke your mom up, because of trying to get a hold of you.
damn.
What a fucking mistake.
I dont ever wanna feel like this ever again...
I hate crying over you this way.

WTF!

Why are you doing this to me!!!!

Why?
I'm now getting mad at you.
Oh god. you've made me feel like crap this morning.
I'm so so so so so so so....i dont know....upset.
Thanks....thanks a lot!
I thought I could count on you.

You know...this makes me take one step back...
one step back...in caring for you too much.
Im just not care...
It's so hard. Cause I love you so much.
But Im gonna have to try and not think about you today...
Work is gonna suck...cause Im not feeling happy right now.
I've called your house 4 times now.
I feel like a fool.

I'm going to work in 30 min.
I thought Id be talking to you by now...but no.
I will never ask you for anything anymore, cause I dont wanna feel this way again...
the feeling of hope being crushed.

:(

Ive been clicking on your MDE porfil over and over and over again...
to see if you're online.

Im crying so much, looking at pictures of you, you're so goregous on them.
God...I feel like shit.
Where are you?

Why?

Why havent you called me?
Where are you?
What are you doing?

Im so disapointed.
Am I not gonna talk to you at all before I got to work?
Omg...
Shit...
...What is going on in your head right now?
"Oh, I dont need to call Jennifer or write her anything...No, no no...Ill just go to sleep."
or whatever you're doing right now....

Omg...
Feels like I care so much more then you do, you know I would do ANYTHING for you. Anything!!! and if I keept a promis I would keep it.
You havent...
And Im so sad.

My day is gonna suck!!!

Omg

Still no call...I thought I could count on you to call me.
I wanted to talk to you before I go to work.
Did you fall asleep?.....no...that would be wierd, you could have said something then at least, that youre going to bed.
Did you go out?....yeah, maybe to get cigarettes...maybe you had to walk there, if so, you could have wrote me and told me that you were gonna be late or something.

Im crying again, Im a mess.
Im too into you....
I feel stupid...
I dont wanna call really either and check if you're there again, cause I dont wanna wake someone up.

I feel that Im the only one writing to you and so on....where are you?