I can't breath

I can't take this pressure...live is not easy right now.
and I dont want anything to do with my father really....that is what I want...
I hate him for what he's been doing to this family and me...
If you wanna talk to him, you can...
YOU can still work for him...
I....dont wanan see his face...
God, I feels so...upset right now...if you never wanna talk to me again, then...just let me know...
ok. this is just so hard for me, ok. I thought you already were aware of his bullshit...

Im sorry...
You say I do nothing for you...
so...
maybe...Im not good enough for you, Im sorry Jason.
but this is something that I can not do...I can not speak to him about my feeling cause he will step on me like he always does...and stabb me in the heart.