Do you remember?

LOL! Do you wanna fuck?

pusses mami

ok ok....I might go out real quick to the store so..i missed you by 20min on MD2
urhhhuruhh :) I will talk to you around 7pm yourtime...so we can chat.

If I dont catch you in time

I'm right now at Labels waiting for Mom to pick me up, Im thinking...should I go home NOW, or wait until later, cause Jessica has a dance preformance today, mom tells me I wont be home later then around 8 pm. But you never know.
Hm, You know what. Im gonna ask her to drop me off at closest bus station.

I sent you the stuff you needed on your mail :)

I'm excited, tomorrow it will be final :)
and then we're just gonna have to wait.

I'm feeling stressed :( that sucks. I have to calm myself down all the time.
I need you Jason!
You always make me feel better.

Kisses

Im so sorry, I realized that last night I put something in my profile..then when i get rid of it, i must of deleted the code by accident. You took us off your profile??? Why, ive had you on my profile forever...why would i be ashamed...you know I love you, why are you on defense mode? WHY?
Im sorry I didnt write in the blog....a couple of days ago you werent even responding to the nice things i put in the blog...it was just short answers Like "ok baby" then you acted so wierd on the phone and made me seem like you can find better...that im not good enough...You acted so distant like you were talking to someone else, and so desperate to go to the club...you know how that feels and only makes me think you wanted to meet someone there. Then make me feel like total shit that im not there and your fucking CO-worker giving you snotty fucking little girl advice "oh I hate couples that dont have friends" "oh my boyfirend lets me do whatever I want" then come to me with "Jason, I dont want to turn out like some couples do" You fucking made me so so feel like shit about everything and made me think if you can consider advice from a girl thats embarrased of her boyfriends looks at times..then that only leads me to believe you would take advice if they told you about some hotter guy that wants to hook up with you. Ive heard it before in my past "oh , jason is working...he wont know..cmon lets go meet these guys and get fucked".
Do you know one time a i was with an ex girl and her friend and her friends said all relationships go bad after 6months, and my ex told me later on that she thinks she is right! Fuck everyone...im so fucking mad...while I will never never never compare you to them because i love you so so much jennifer...you drive me crazy crazy....but things like hearing you tell me "i dont want to be like the other couples she is talking about" only reminds me of the past and how can you blame me. It only leads me to believe that if that keeps up then I dont think I could ever feel safe. If you want me, then Im yours ..im so upset right now. If you think you can listen to an inexpereieced girl who doesnt know anything about us or the things she is ranting about then fine...go ahead...go go go go. Try deeply to think of one couple you know that doesnt hang out with friends. Right you cant think of any can you....really you cant..casue its very rare.
My heart pounds deeply for you, I do so much for you and you are always on my mind....I try so hard to to get this visa cause I dont want to be away from you for this long again. I want you so much...Our bodies, minds, and our souls together till we die. I want that passion with us, and that sexual relationship. I am so crazy for you. you dont even know. this video is for you... im crazy for you


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PFaBKg5iEwU

^watch that link then call me when you watch it

Your voice

So glad I got to talk to you!
It made me feel so much better, I will go to work happy :)

I was bothered and, you hearing your voice calmed me down.
You are the light in my life Jason!

lots of kisses

Good luck today!
I love you!

I hate this

I know our love is strong, I KNOW you wanna be with me forever and always, and everything.
I know we wanna share eachothers future.

But!
Sometimes, there is small things that bothers me, and makes me sad in the morning when I wake up. Things that you do, that effects me so bad that I wanna call you right up and wake you up 7 am in the morning.
1. I asked you to write me something nice here that I can read when I wake up, it is not much to ask for when you are up antoher 7 hours after I go to bed. I wake up, excited, I open the blog...and nothing, I had put up a picture of Time square...and...whatever.
2. Last active 2 hrs and 47 min. you went to bed 4 am your time, we got off the phone 9 pm your time...hmm...
3. You took off our picture on your MD 2 signature..................................why? I took off mine too now. *sad*

3 small things that makes my day a kinda sad and bothered one insted of a happy and excited day. This makes me not wanna go to work...I will go to work and I will be sad. and bothered. cause I wont talk to you until I get back from work....

I dont know what you are thinking when you go to, edit my account, and delete the codes for our picture together. I wonder....is he ashamed of me? does he not wanna show us together as a couple? I dont understand.

You are going to the konsulat today, I wish you good luck and...as I think about this, the things that make me sad, I almost wanna drop some tears. but...I dont know. I'm tired of it. I wanna stay strong and staying strong mean, that I am gonna have to be mad at you until I get to talk to you, just be mad at you so I dont have to feel sad. do you understand what I mean?
I'll be on defense mood.

anyway, I love you so much you dont understand!!!!!!
I can not control you Jason, you do what you want. Hope you just do the right things from now on.
Dont be worried. I'm yours always! just remember that always and forever.

:(
Bye.

NYC BABY!!!

Can't wait to check it out!

I'm talking to u on the phone, and u crack me up, and the mall is so close t your house, hehe, looking at stupid shit. I LOVE YOU!!

missed you

Missed you by an hour, I woke up now. Did you go to labels?

Glad you wrote me on the blog. Puss

I will be back

I'll be back soon love.
I'm at grandmothers places :)

Breathing your love

Darin feat Kat DeLuna - Breathing Your Love music video

Baby you, is the diamond that lasts foreverAnd I just can't take a single step without youBaby to you, I'll always be a faithful lover'Cause my heart can't make a single beat without youYou make me flyYou get me highYou turn my world to such a better placeYour crazy touchThe sweetest rushIs something that saved my lifeI wanna spend my nights and days between your armsEveryday breathing your loveAnd even in my dreams I wanna be kissing your lipsBaby breathing your loveBreathing your love, baby boo, only you can make me recoverThe lost parts of me I thought they'd gone a long time agoWith you, life runs like the best love letterWas just an empty soul until you step into my showYou make me flyYou get me highYou turn my world to such a better placeYour crazy touchThe sweetest rushIs something that saved my lifeI wanna spend my nights and days between your armsEveryday breathing your loveAnd even in my dreams I wanna be kissing your lipsBaby breathing your loveI wanna have that craz loveWanna run it in my bloodWant it taking over meOver me, over me, yeahI wanna spend my nights and days between your armsEveryday breathing your loveAnd even in my dreams I wanna be kissing your lipsBaby breathing your loveI wanna spend my nights and days between your armsEveryday breathing your loveAnd even in my dreams I wanna be kissing your lipsBaby breathing your love

Forever and for always

I will love you!
until my dying end.

Pusses!
we'll talk later, hope you'll have a good sleep baby.

papi chulo!

goodmorning

Jennifer,

Do you recognize yourself?

:)

I was just looking at your card before i went to sleep....your the shit.

When you come here...put on your new bright white Airforce Ones and lets go to the city to chill out in Times Square...Its been a minute since ive been there. Smell the subways of Grand Central Station....Ill get you a salted pretzel or roasted nuts...or you can try my nuts..either way I still love you.

Some Resturants in Times Square....

Hard Rock Cafe
Chevey's
Apple Bee's or Chinese in China Town

Then in a few days we can go check out Soho NYC in the village....The city of art! loads of cafes. Shit...we can go to the city everyday if youd like.

When I wake up...we will talk.

When you come home we will talk...we will get by this waiting period.

hey...Did I tell you about South Broadway Street in the City? :)

dont worry sexy ass

you will be fine....we will talk...im going to cash my paycheck now and im gonna get a phone card...i also drained all 37.5mill out of your md3 account and 850pts to the vault...im gonna get it transferred to MDE and then give you the equal amount on MD2 :)

If im not home when you call ill be back shortly

Papi

I have to go to the city and buy Maria a birthday present, I'm gonna do it real quick, so I'll be home very soon, before you know it. I will call you from my cell, I'll bring my phone card :) and wake you up.

I love you I love you I love you!


ps. Hey...how do you wanna make with the money you owe me, save for when I get there or send them over to me now? I am a little bit short on money, Im thinking of buying christmas presents and that stresses me out cause I can't afford a lot of gifts, Oooh...Oh well...I'll get my sallary from Max's the 15th but...It feels like forever until I'll get that money.
Right now have 4600:- and I have payed of 3000: for the accident and 700:- for rent.
but I have the car left, and then I have to buy a bus card, grr, and...then...xmas presents.I guess I'll be fine....
Help me baby, I'm stressing out again.

goodmorning

call me at 10am my time...be my alarm clock